SCA world vs. "real" world
Sep. 18th, 2006 12:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eveglassIt's vey odd. At SCA events, I am outgoing, confident, and comfortable in my role. In the "real" world, since graduation, I am increasingly the opposite.
In the SCA, I know what I'm doing, I know how to do it, and I know I do it well. In the "real" world, I don't anymore. I don't know how to find the jobs I want, and I don't even know if I'm qualified for the jobs I want. I have no experience, and unlike in the SCA, I can't simply DO something and get the experience.
The SCA community is small and open. I can walk up to someone, ask "how can I help you," and be told how I can contribute. In the "real" world, doors are closed, and I need to prove that I can help someone before they'll let me in. The main difference, of course, is that in the "real" world, I'm looking for money in exchange for my help.
Every time I sit down to my computer to start job hunting, I get overwhelmed. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know who to call, I sometimes don't even know what I want. Do I really want to go after these editing and teaching jobs, or should I just find myself a secretarial position and be content with that? I truly don't know any more.
It's so frustrating. I want to work. I want to contribute. I want to feel like I'm making a difference and helping people... and yet I sit on my computer all day and don't do any of that.
Why is this so hard?!? I wish "real" life were like the SCA...
In the SCA, I know what I'm doing, I know how to do it, and I know I do it well. In the "real" world, I don't anymore. I don't know how to find the jobs I want, and I don't even know if I'm qualified for the jobs I want. I have no experience, and unlike in the SCA, I can't simply DO something and get the experience.
The SCA community is small and open. I can walk up to someone, ask "how can I help you," and be told how I can contribute. In the "real" world, doors are closed, and I need to prove that I can help someone before they'll let me in. The main difference, of course, is that in the "real" world, I'm looking for money in exchange for my help.
Every time I sit down to my computer to start job hunting, I get overwhelmed. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know who to call, I sometimes don't even know what I want. Do I really want to go after these editing and teaching jobs, or should I just find myself a secretarial position and be content with that? I truly don't know any more.
It's so frustrating. I want to work. I want to contribute. I want to feel like I'm making a difference and helping people... and yet I sit on my computer all day and don't do any of that.
Why is this so hard?!? I wish "real" life were like the SCA...
